Think back to the first glance, the first hang out, the first touch, the first kiss.
Everything becomes new and exciting.. then as the days go by, it then turns to months and then to years. Then things start to become a routine. You begin to share your interest and then it molds to our interest. You begin to find our spots and our inside jokes. Someone you once new as a complete stranger has all of a sudden plays an important role in your life.
Calvin and I have been together for 15 months. We only knew each other for few months before we decided to start dating.. soo we really didn't know each other for that long before we decided to be become an item. I mean, I'm still learning things about him and his life before we met. We always spends the weekends together.. in 15 months that's a lot of weekends to be together.. well the whole point of this blog was because I'm totally being one of those cry baby girlfriends are are missing their boyfriend. He left to Hong Kong this morning to visit his parents (He'll be there for 3 weeks) I know it's not that long tho.. only 3 weekends, but that's 3 weekends I have to figure out what to do on my own. He's not only my boyfriend but he's my eating partner! (>.<") He went there last year for the same amount of time but back then we were only together for a few months so him leaving didn't make such a disruption in my everyday flow.
We met during a time when I had just picked myself up from feeling completely broken from my health (having pneumonia) to losing fake friendships, and figuring out my career. But we met after all of that when I felt like I had finally figured out who I am and who I am striving to be. Then again I was doubting that after all my issues with trusting people should I really be starting something new... with this stranger.. but he ended being that something new that I really needed in my life.. as corny as it sounds but since then it's hard to imagine making plans without him..
We aren't perfect tho.. we've had our plenty of fights and doubt.. but really at the end of the day we would rather be fighting it through together then to not have each other in our lives. I guess once you begin to fall in love with someone and you say those words - there's no taking it back. I've grown to be really grateful for him to coming into my life the way he did and for the timing. I wonder what it would be like if we had met sooner.. but back then I was completely different person.. we probably would've end up how we are today.
Timing is everything. We had to go through what we needed to be to become this version of ourselves today in order to work out. I truly believe that. Wow as I'm writing this.. I'm really missing him.. it hasn't even been a day!! Calvin's been on his flight to Korea for 6 hours now.. 11 hour flight total and then from Korea to Hong Kong. I'm going to try to go to bed early and check my phone right when I wake up for his text (^.^)
-Lisa Marie Lim
P.S. I'm really going to take advantage of this me time to write some more blogs and hope that this helps my anxiety. Calvin is my person who helps calm me and with him being gone I told myself I really have to try and not be so dependent on him :(
