3 week Update

How did 3 weeks already go by? I swear I just started this journey. Does time go by faster when you start to feel better?

Overall how do I feel? I feel more in control. I feel like my anxiety doesn't have to take over. I started to realize I was getting anxious over.. well.. to simply put it.. nothing.

It's like in week 5 brain hit a switch. I didn't realize how compulsive and how silly some of the things I did. Monday was my follow up appointment with my primary care to discuss how I am responding to the medications. It told her that I let the laundry sit for a day before folding it and putting things away.. the world didn't end.

I have mini panic attacks, nothing that I can just breath through. I don't feel like the world is caving in so much.

Music sounds different.. my own voice sounds different but in a good way. I mentioned this to Alesha and she said it can mean that I'm more alert, more aware.

Fast forward to life updates:
Traded my scion to get the lexus from my mom so she could use the scion to get her new mercedes. Yesterday I got in a car accident, a women rear ended me at a stop and then from that impact I hit the car in front of me. I was so in shock "like did that really happened?!"I have neck pain and left should pain now. I spent hours this morning with insurance companies.. I'm taking 2 days off work now to deal with all this.

I'm overwhelmed with the amount of people who reached out to check in on me.. why did I ever feel so alone. In the last year I was having a hard time opening myself up to people, I realized I was just opening up to the wrong people.

I'm finding a better balance. I know I'm doing better when I communicate better and I'm not hiding away. It's nice to feel reliable and to know that I will and can follow through.

Recovery is a long and fighting process.

-Lisa Marie Lim
(I will get better at updating)