I feel like I've blinked and I'm now 26, with a career, paying rent/bills, making my own appointments and plans. I just read a few posts from my previous blog from when I first started on this site back in 2008, that's a decade ago! I'm amazed at myself for how mature I sounded, how eloquently I wrote and how "put together" I sounded. But was I really? Who was I trying to fool? I was so young back then.. when I wrote that blog I didn't think I'd get so much nostalgia reading it today.
As I went through each post, I wrote of my plans and I saw how much those plans kept changing. I did not know how to make up my mind. There was so many options, and I didn't know to implement them.
Then I got distracted with boys and drama.. I became lost without any goals or ambitions. I let relationships validate me.. I let my insecurities with wanting to fit in with "friends" break my sense of well-being. I can't go back and change anything.. all I can do now is look back and reflect. I have to remember I went through these struggles to get to this place today...
Where I am today? I am at peace and I am happy and comfortable with who I am as the person I've fought to become.
I don't know exactly what I'm going to do with this blog.. probably keep it a personal blog to just check in. It's nice to look back on something and reading your own thoughts and who you were in the past. To see growth.
In 10 years I have grown a whole lot as an individual.
What kind of person am I going to be in another 10 years?..
-Lisa Marie Lim
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