Goodbye 2018, Hello 2019

New Year, New Goals.

I just finished transcribing into my new planner for the year and I was reflecting on how 2018 was.. and there was a lot of changes.

I moved twice due to a bad situation and because of this situation I have now lost contact with my sister. She's still alive, but it's weird to grief over someone who is still alive but she is no longer the sister I know. She's chosen a life and a relationship that I don't agree with. I learned that you can't force someone to live a better life if they don't choose to themselves. I have been sad / heart broken over it for the last 6 months but I cannot no longer dwell on getting a relationship back with her when she is no longer herself..

I got closer to my parents. It took me moving out of their home for us to get closer. Funny how that works out. Generally speaking I've become closer to my whole family. I text my aunts and uncles more for advice. I hug and play with my little cousins any chance I get. I can only hope that I've become a role model to them and as they grow older I can be there for them if they can't go to their parents.

My relationship with Calvin has grown so much. We spend every weekend together but as the years have gone by our lives are becoming even more intertwined. I feel so lucky that this holiday season that we both were able to spend so much time with our family. Although my family is bigger than Calvin's but his family is very tight knit on having family dinners and celebrating holidays.

I tend to get the winter blues badly. I get so depressive to the point where I can't even get out of bed. Years ago I even felt suicidal. I am so grateful to be around not only my family but around Calvin's too. The amount of love and joy we've had in the last month and all the memories we made had felt like my saving grace.

I am so grateful for so much.

I can't wait for the next year. To accomplish more things. Go on new adventures. Checking in with my mental health. Checking in with my family and friends. To see where my career will take me.

I'm going to take more pictures so I can begin scrapbooking. Start vlogging and documenting our adventures. I'm determined to stay inspired and to keep positive vibes around.

Another goal is to keep this blog update at least once a month. It always feels good to finish a post and to get my thoughts out of my brain.

-Lisa Marie Lim