Finally Friday

Day 4 Antidepressant / Day 3 Anti-Anxiety

I'm only keeping count of my days on antidepressants because after 7 days of taking 1 pill I have to up my dosage 2 a day.. I have terrible memory so this is my way of keeping track of it. 

Tonight I won't take my anti-anxiety medication, I usually feel better on the weekend with no stress of working. It's a 3 day weekend for me because the clinic is closed for memorial day. 

Today at work was stressful, we are short staffed RN's/MA's.. we have a new nurse at my clinic site, I ended rooming for both providers, I snapped once at my provider.. that was a first but it's frustrating.. (long story short we've had issues with the front desk scheduling our patients.. my job is not to schedule people and I end up having to do it anyways as a courtesy to our patient's access.) 

Overall mood feels lighter even with work being so stressful. The new nurse kept thanking me for being so patient with her and for helping her. I told her "she should've met me last year I was a huge ball of anxiousness, I"ve just learned to take it one day at a time and be present in the moment and not let something stress me out, no sense it getting all worked up." 

I've never worked at a place where i wanna hug all my coworkers so much. We chose to work at a job that is anything but easy. It's energy draining, it takes a lot of our compassion and care for our patients. I truly love what I get to do for work. I got pretty lucky working here. 

Anyways I'm writing this blog outside on the patio. It's cold out here, its 9pm. I've been wanting to do this for so long.. just write my thoughts and sit and listen to calm/cars drive by. I love where we live now, the neighborhoods feels safe because of all the old retirements and residentials here.

Calvin is inside right now watching a movie. I told him I needed about 30 minutes alone to write. I need to be consistent. We worked out when I had gotten home from work. I've always wanted a significant other to work out with so I'm glad we have this in common. Our health. Although we did just pig out on 3 large pizzas with Eric. It's balance! 

I'm doing better today. Tomorrow Calvin's sister Carol and her bf Shane are going to come over for hot pot. I love when we all get together to eat and this will be the first time she sees the townhouse and also to see where Calving will live after he moves out of their place together. I know Calvin said shes ok with him leaving and she does have her bf over a lot, I just want her to know that we will always stay close because family is everything.

-Lisa Marie Lim